Moving...

Packaging tape to wrap up the memories I want to keep.  Boxes to hold the pieces that constitute, what was once my home, to be taken to rebuild a new one.  Foundation pieces reflecting that which I have become.  Memories drop like leaves from a tree strewn across the floors of the house as I prepare for a new start.

The house I leave is a facade, concealing all the flaws and inadequacies of its construction.   A message from the universe?  Is it a reflection of my life thus far?  From the outside all nice and happy concealing the hurt and heartache underneath.  I wonder?

What of my new home? A quaint two bedroom cottage, kitchen that has been refurnished with new cupboards, bathrooms that have been tiled over and everything in its place. A small patch of nature in the form of a pristine garden complete with water feature and jacuzzi.  Everything that I have always wanted in a house. Is this a symbol that I have discovered who I am?  The facades and masks removed the true me.  I wonder?

The world around me seems to symbolize where I am at this moment in time.  The more I understand about me and what I am, the more unyielding and inflexible I have become about what I want.  And yet at the same time I have become more tolerant of others and the more appreciative of the human condition.

As I delve deep into the recesses of my mind I see the fears which have shaped my life and I now have the courage to face them.  The blue on my canvas shimmers, orange the warmth of the sun rising signifying the dawn of a new day, a new life.  I dip my brush and apply the colour, my whole being lights up with promises of warmth and light.

I will step forth with my head held high and a song of gratitude in my heart for indeed the Almighty has favored me with a new opportunity to live again :-)

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